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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Wed Apr 23, 2008 8:18 pm

Oh but arguing is so much fun! ;-)

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Wed Apr 23, 2008 9:16 pm

brainjunky,

You won't make a statement supporting your claim, not even a rough outline, but you want Conrad to read a 280 page (iirc) dense foundational work instead?

Somehow I think you have over-posted.

So, please, 'waste' some time. Do me a favor and point out my errors, and I will thank you. Otherwise, explain how asking someone to read 280 pages is preferable to you writing a paragraph.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Wed Apr 23, 2008 9:31 pm

Yeah, I have never liked that "go read a book" action. It reminds me of many, many conversations with Randroids where they send me back Atlas Shrugged instead of engaging in conversation, as if that answers my question. It's a kind of "fuck you" when you say that. So, please, indulge us. I have read Branden, and even that particular book as well, yet I have NO CLUE what your position with respect to Alex's post might be.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Wed Apr 23, 2008 9:35 pm

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... you want Conrad to read a 280 page (iirc) dense foundational work instead?


I was thinking the same thing. I had a girlfriend once who, when we argued about something political, would claim that I needed to read such-and-such book before I could really understand the topic. It became apparent that these books had been hugely influential to her, but that she couldn't articulate those persuasive arguments herself. I suppose this is the attractive quality that an appeal to authority has, at least until you really understand its nature.
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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Wed Apr 23, 2008 9:37 pm

... on the other hand, sometimes there are foundational works, or types of works, that legitimately are critical reading for a particular topic. In such a case, however, it's still the responsibility of their advocate to explain why they're so important.
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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 12:56 am

BJ:In psychology, self-esteem reflects a person's overall self-appraisal of their own worth. It would seem to me that posting go read such and such is an indicator of low self esteem and might represent a fear of articulating the knowledge one has acquired with conviction.


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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 5:26 am

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I like the question too Conrad. Maybe I can offer some insight, because I think I tend to write with something of a similar process to Stef.

I remember writing my term paper in a senior computer science course in one night. I wrote 35 pages, checked it twice, and handed it in for an expected 50 out of 50 score. I really enjoyed that paper, because though I found the topic fairly boring, I was able to draw together 30-40 sources into a cogent portrayal of the state of the subject in the literature. I made a few false starts and took a few unfruitful tangents which I then removed, but overall the process was akin to putting together a puzzle with pieces that I could somewhat design: relaxing, creative, engaging.

I had a similar experience with a paper for a class taught by famous philosopher Hilary Putnam. I basically wrote it in one night, just in a flow and it was the highest grade I ever got for a paper.

still though, I think there were still sort of similar phases to the ones I described, but then on a smaller scale during wrting that paper

but all my other papers tend to take months to write, mostly because they tend to jst grow and grow in scope and hopefully depth, to the point of despair of ever being able to finish it (and then once I am in the process of actully finishing the despair is 'agh, this is worthless, phony, unorginal etc.'




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This isn't to say that I'd ever have chosen to write such a paper without it being required, but rather that somehow because the requirement was unavoidable, and then accepted, I was able to put bitchiness and procrastination aside and just do it.

lately i've had some deadlines as well (not for formal papers, but for drafts, proposals, etc.) and these times they did help in actully just writing da shit down

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Any twinging or serious second guessing would have deflated such a self-hypnotized state. Its like being in a particular zone which is somewhat fragile, but highly productive and not un-enjoyable.

good point


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One problem with having some modicum of talent and a lingering need to be regarded as clever is that writing is the perfect milieu for receiving predictable praise and attention. Feeling low? Just admire your cleverness,

ha! yeah, self-admiration made possible by writing is a big thing. good catch

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or the reviews of others. So long as one takes the time to engage this shallow but strong drive, the drive really does do all the work. Writing is a controllable expression, and with a strong innate (or perhaps more likely, beaten in) desire to be appreciated, its the perfect platform for limiting risk.

by 'controllable expression' you mean something like 'it is you who is in control, sitting behind a computer, typing, creating a universe' rather than being dependent on others like in interactions or anything.
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Another problem is that because some core need is being served, and cleverness or insight or creativity is the bait for positive attention, if it does fail, it is humiliating and crushing. When the medium is chosen because it offers control, and one still fails, whatever panic is being avoided resurfaces with more heads.

very true, but one hardly ever fails in i don't know a public sense, no? I mean, you can fal in your own eyes but the peole arond you tend to think the work is at least 'good' (perhap not as brilliant as you would like, but at least 'good')

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And not insignificantly, one's growth as a writer is strongly curtailed because of the essential and hidden nature of one's motivations. Objectivity isn't an option.

can you say more about how the latter sentence fits in with the former. i get the former independently and it's an excellent point, but the latter sentence no comprendo


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I would think that for Stefan, he feels that what he writes, he must write. By whatever means through which he decides that he's the man for the job, or that the job is unavoidably his, he does reach this conclusion. Then the job is somewhat effortless. The assumption is unchallengeable (for some reason), so it is taken to be true for the duration. Because the job must be done (or death, lack of attention, loneliness, self esteem drop, recreation of family approval seeking, role-taking, etc..?), and because its success is also completely requisite, the effort of doing these things is satisfying at every step.

very well put. the only thing i doubt is the 'or death, etc.' I'm not sure whether Stef experiences a 'what if...' kind of feeling.

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When a clever paragraph comes together, its a relief. A negative way of viewing this whole process is that it may be a way of earning interior relief:

like smoking. tension builds up and then there is relief.

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"I'm actually valuable, and I've proved it again". "Without such an irrational drive, who would write anything?" might be a way of psuedo-reflecting on one's strong motivation. In another sense, such an activity as a whole may be a way of avoiding an "unthought-known" fear: Eg: "If I do this, I can avoid facing this possibly disabling truth about myself...that I'm only valued for my cleverness (or whatever).". Such fear avoidance doesn't make sense, but it still works somehow.

don't really understand this part. i mean, the writing is exactly done out of a desire to be cnsidered clever. is then the self-delusion in sort of knowing this stuff about cleverness but not wanting to know it?



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Well, that's my exploration of un-self-conscious writing. I know with my own writing, that the stuff that I really care about, I often re-examine and find severely lacking. Letters to lovers, impassioned pleas for some cause, poetry, songs, even diaries. In those arenas I rarely come upon old work and say: "Wow, I really was brilliant. This is still sooo true!". Quite the opposite.

it is possibly interesting that (if) you look back on your work in that way, with that perspective, in terms of 'how good was it?' rather than something else, like 'how did i feel back then?' or whatever. that said, i don't know whether your remark actually implies what i jst wrote, so...

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And that is where I think Stef's apparent lack of reflection is puzzling. He's written a lot, but I don't know that I've ever seen him acknowledge that "I don't know what I was thinking, but I made some mistakes and am not in line with that essay anymore".

i think he does look back on himself of more than say 5 year ago in that way (when he still supported the war n Iraq, ir before that when he was Randian, psychologically not a sophisticated etc.), but he can no longer allow himself to doubt himself. he's living the role of infallible teacher/therapist now
and he has made it very hard for himself to correct his views, I mean after having proclamed UPB as the most important breakthrough in the history of mankind an fter saying he has solved the free will/determinism debate for the first time in human history, it's hard to back down from such grandios claims


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Surely he's grown and diverged and would re-experience his older works with some puzzlement. But I don't see it, so I start to think that he's got the inner rule: "Not only must I be happy with my cleverness after writing a piece, but for all time". This will surely trap him, if true. I can't think of any thinker who would not end up cornered by such preposterous and fragile rules. As his thinking does grow and change, he will have to hide this from himself. This means not reading his old material, and avoiding large chunks of his own process. At some point, this draws the curtains on cognition.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 5:37 am

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He Conrad,

Do you know the book The psychology of Self-Esteem, by Nathaniel Branden? This book will help you understand certain aspects of your feelings/thoughts, especially doubt and fear.

The book can be bought at Amazon. You can also download it from the newsgroups, just do a search on "psychology esteem" on http://www.binsearch.net. Make sure to set 'maximum age of post' to 200. Or I could e-mail it to you, if you like.

thanks and welcome to LM! I actually have Branden's book and started reading it some time last year but discontinued after only a few pages, not sure why, i didnt like his 'tone' or something.
But you make a good point re understanding aspects of feelings and thoughts and this truly is a worthwhile endeavour, getting to understand yourself in that way. I have done a bit of this in the form of identfying negative thought patterns and replacing them with good ones, (although last few months i seem to have experiencd some regression) but one of the things i learned from Stef was taking your emotions seriously and realizing that they point you to truths about yourself, and i have sort of neglected doing this.


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Furthermore, I advice you to ignore Alex' reply untill you've read the book. I'm pretty sure that you'll find what he says rather silly after reading The psychology of Self-Esteem.

Greetings,

Brainjunky

p.s.: If you would like to know why i think what Alex says is rather silly, just read the book. I'm not going to waste my time arguing.

those are rather strong statements, and arguing may not be a waste of your time in the sense that it forces you to clearly summarize and analyze and defend what you leaned from Branden
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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 6:13 am

Conrad wrote:
brainjunky wrote:
He Conrad,

Do you know the book The psychology of Self-Esteem, by Nathaniel Branden? This book will help you understand certain aspects of your feelings/thoughts, especially doubt and fear.

The book can be bought at Amazon. You can also download it from the newsgroups, just do a search on "psychology esteem" on http://www.binsearch.net. Make sure to set 'maximum age of post' to 200. Or I could e-mail it to you, if you like.

thanks and welcome to LM! I actually have Branden's book and started reading it some time last year but discontinued after only a few pages, not sure why, i didnt like his 'tone' or something.
But you make a good point re understanding aspects of feelings and thoughts and this truly is a worthwhile endeavour, getting to understand yourself in that way. I have done a bit of this in the form of identfying negative thought patterns and replacing them with good ones, (although last few months i seem to have experiencd some regression) but one of the things i learned from Stef was taking your emotions seriously and realizing that they point you to truths about yourself, and i have sort of neglected doing this.


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Furthermore, I advice you to ignore Alex' reply untill you've read the book. I'm pretty sure that you'll find what he says rather silly after reading The psychology of Self-Esteem.

Greetings,

Brainjunky

p.s.: If you would like to know why i think what Alex says is rather silly, just read the book. I'm not going to waste my time arguing.

those are rather strong statements, and arguing may not be a waste of your time in the sense that it forces you to clearly summarize and analyze and defend what you leaned from Branden


Thank you for welcoming.

I agree with you, and all the previous, that it was a bit rude of me to formulate my thoughts so briefly. The reason that i did this was because they tend to go 1000mph, while i can only write at the speed of 10mph. Actually kilometers here Wink, ayways...

I will try to write a decent reply today or tomorrow. Have to search thru the book again for some things Nathaniel said, which should make it clear to why i think you should ignore Alex' reply.
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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 10:05 am

I'm laughing at the idea that one should ignore what one person wrote because some other person wrote some other thing. !!!

I tend to want to act based upon reasonably articulable ideas which seem to make sense, not because somebody wrote something somewhere.

I don't care WHO said it. If it doesn't make sense to me then that is my authority. This is in no way intended to imply that I cannot be wrong. But there is no higher authority than myself when it comes to things which affect me. I think that is definitional, if not intuitively true.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 11:45 am

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very well put. the only thing i doubt is the 'or death, etc.' I'm not sure whether Stef experiences a 'what if...' kind of feeling.

Maybe I should explain more what I'm getting at here. I think that certain low level fears (anxieties) that have associated avoidance mechanisms are never actually experienced consciously.

So, if as a child you start to encounter an existential fear: "my parent is going to murder me", "I'm going to be left behind and die", "my feeling of sadness is punished with a beating (sadness = death)", etc..., the whole personality will rally to avoid ever experiencing that fear again. Often that means taking some action in the world: "I laugh instead of cry", "I get attention every few minutes to avoid being abandoned", etc.. But perhaps more frequently, the action is internal. An infolding of awareness prevents consciousness from experiencing the fear directly. Rather, it is avoided by taking action along some parallel issue that the child/person can influence.

So fears where action can have some effect can be handled with action, while fears where the victim is powerless must go somewhere else in order to be avoided. Neither case is indicative of healthy parenting. Even though action is taken in the first case, it is bully/victim action, and as Stef rightly asserts, this warps the personality when compared with those persons so fortunate as to be raised by compassionate and secure human beings and not wolves.

The whole idea with writing out of need for praise and attention is to not experience the "what if". The "what if" is assumed and left unchallenged because it is the doorway to the primary fear. If this kind of writer didn't write successfully, they would have to either confront the fear bubbling into consciousness, or find some other neurotic behavior to layer over the discomfort with a drive: "I really want to sleep around", or "I really want to climb the corporate ladder", etc.. The drive masks the experience of "why?".

This is just like normalization in the idea that we'd rather pretend that all people are abusive than accept that our primary objects are abusive to us personally. In the case of general neuroses though, its "I'd rather assume that my motivation is authentic, than find out that it is just a way of avoiding some fear". Motivation by reason of holding-reality-together is very strong. And hence, every step of the writing process is enjoyable. Since failure isn't an option, neither is doubt.

The seemingly contradictory counter-intuitive bit needs some work. I'm using 'cleverness' just as an example concept, not making a blanket statement about Stef's or my own writing...

1. I need love and respect. I don't get enough. Hardly any really.

2. I only get positive attention when I'm clever.

3. I'm afraid that I'm not valued for who I am, but for how I entertain my primary objects. I'm afraid that I'm used, rather than loved.

4. I'm feeling lonely and afraid because of #3

5. I'll write something clever, or put on a skit, because at least I get something from that.

6. Damn, I proved it again: "I'm valued because I'm clever". But am I only valued because I'm clever? I don't want to find out. So, I'll never ask this question again. Rather, I'll assume that: "Cleverness leads to love", so whenever I feel needy, I'll be clever, and I'll be happy with what I get.

7. Existential crisis subsumed. Awareness --1. Survivability ++1.

Its a rather pessimistic view of social drives, but I'm working on a theory based around managing existential fears in attachment relationships, and the apparent 'un-self-critical' aspect of Stef's creative process rings some bells.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 12:41 pm

Alex,

Your post above is very interesting to me. I'm not sure that I follow all of it, but if the gist of it that I get is accurate, I think this is really important stuff.

I wrote an article a while back about 9/11 and the fact that it had to be an inside job, and that what was really scary to me was the fact, not that it was an inside job, but what the resultant actions revealed about humans, or citizens, or at least a large number of people living in this country. And that is this: (please read the article, if you want my thinking in more depth) The idea that people could be so evil is simply unacceptable, and people will DO ANYTHING rather than admit to themselves that someone would be capable of planning the destruction of 3,000 of their "fellow citizens" for their own strategic gains. In other words, people will willingly believe what they know, on some level, to be false, rather than to admit to themselves that the world is not as they believe (want) it to be. We will willing lie to ourselves.

I can't even imagine how that is possible, yet it seems to not only be possible, but common and integral to who we are.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 2:22 pm

I'm looking forward to savoring that article this evening. My initial question is:

Is it that people are uncertain as to whether or not some truly evil mastermind is at work, and to avoid the possibility subscribe to a lie, or is it that we're certain about an unacceptable truth, and rather than know about our certainty, subscribe to a lie?

The reason why I wonder about that is to draw the parallel with an abusive relationship. Often there is no denying the abuse, but rather than condemn a person on whom we're dependent, we'll warp reality to excuse it, or 'balance' the abuse with invisible admirable qualities like 'potential', or 'a good but hidden heart'.

As the state is like an abusive parent, is the denial about hiding a known fact: "The state (my fellow countrymen who claim to have my interests at heart, and upon whom I depend for my protection and livelihood) is abusive and directly or indirectly responsible for this tragedy", or is it about an inability to comprehend the possibility, whether or not its true: "I cannot consider that the state has done this, because I cannot resolve whether or not they are abusive predators of my goodwill"?

Maybe there's no difference, now that I think about it...

And I agree with you that although bizarre, such reality warping seems to be one of the default human responses to power imbalance and violence.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 2:39 pm

I wrote that article almost 2 years ago. It took me two days to write it as the logic that was unfolding in my head around the events was almost to grim for me to admit to myself. Yet, there it was, and it was undeniable. As time has gone by and I've seen the unwillingness of scientists to admit that steel does not melt when you pour burning kerosene on it, and others of equal intellectual and educational standing simply refuse to see, or at least refuse to publicly own up to FLAGRANT impossibilities and contradictions with known laws of nature, as I've seen these things become so blatant that they are no longer a matter of generous excusing away, I've lost pretty much any ability to credit the human animal with rational thought where more primal issues are at play.

This leaves me to believe more that intellectual pursuits like ethics and such are meaningless aside from fun for fun's sake. For when push comes to shove, we'll nuke 'em first and think of ethics later. I really do hope that the entire world's economic system collapses for that is the only hope I see of slowing or stopping the engine of empire which, if allowed to build momentum, seems doomed to trigger those most dangerous instincts within us, within those who have the ability to destroy the world with the push of a lizard brain finger on the button.

But maybe it's just nature's reset button. Who knows?

And on that cheery note, let me wish you all a good day, lots of love, and a hearty wish that I'm totally full of shit.

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PostSubject: Re: The creative process in Stef   Thu Apr 24, 2008 2:40 pm

And, Alex, to answer your question... I don't know. It's a good question.

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